things i thought when my thoughts thought without me is an ongoing, self-indulgent visual poetry anthology where i make sense of the angularity and noise.

with love to my visible & invisble allies. everything you are is hope to me.

lauren holden is a toronto-based creative who feels everything, and writes about it sometimes. her work explores mental health, social justice, and verbal/visual authorship. & feelings, always feelings.

to make sense:

Kids Help Phone

Ontario Mental Health Helpline

Toronto Distress Centres
416-408-4357 or 408-HELP

You belong here.
If you are in crisis, call 911

to feel known:

Literally show me a healthy person,
darcie wilder
Reasons to Stay Alive, Matt Haig
So Sad Today, Melissa Broder
The Bell Jar, Sylvia Plath

Please, turn your device sideways.
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I am the person slapping spaghetti against her cheeks in the second row from the back while the rest of you ~network. I think, I'm a poet, fuck you automatons. And then I also think about mindless babies