things i thought when my thoughts thought without me is an ongoing, self-indulgent visual poetry anthology where i make sense of the angularity and noise.

with love to my visible & invisble allies. everything you are is hope to me.

lauren holden is a toronto-based creative who feels everything, and writes about it sometimes. her work explores mental health, social justice, and verbal/visual authorship. & feelings, always feelings.

to make sense:

Kids Help Phone

Ontario Mental Health Helpline

Toronto Distress Centres
416-408-4357 or 408-HELP

You belong here.
If you are in crisis, call 911

to feel known:

Literally show me a healthy person,
darcie wilder
Reasons to Stay Alive, Matt Haig
So Sad Today, Melissa Broder
The Bell Jar, Sylvia Plath

Please, turn your device sideways.
girls reaching girls reaching girls reaching
I am a straight white cis upper middle class physically able woman with scholarships rights a bed spending money the freedom not to work insurance a university education fillings fresh vegetables free time a data plan vacations therapy yoga teachers overpriced clothes two parents of liberal politics no commute time my own apartment a stupid candle collection and a slim figure and i wish my mind would get some goddamned perspective.